Recovering from Depression... Again

My last post was a bit depressing, so I felt the need to update again.

I'm doing much better! And guess what? I STARTED WRITING AGAIN.

I honestly can't believe it. I've started taking Abilify, and although I experienced some minor side effects, I don't anymore. It works wonders for me, and I'm so grateful. I thought it was going to be another failed medication experiment.

If you're unfamiliar with that medication, it's an antipsychotic (of course it would work for me) that helps balance serotonin and dopamine levels in your brain. Apparently that was exactly what I needed, not too much of serotonin. Not only that, I decided to give these Dopamine Brain Food supplements a shot, too.

Let me tell ya, it's amazing!

They did make me dizzy on the first day, but that never happened again. In fact, they make me more calm and relaxed, and even focused, which was exactly what I wanted. I'm tired of having excess energy and not being productive with it. I'm tired of having my thoughts be scattered and being unfocused. Therefore, when I meet with my doctor again, I'm gonna ask for Adderall since the benefits of that particular medication look amazing. I may even have ADHD, too, so why not.

So not only have I started writing again, I've created goals for my future, which is a big sign of stepping into the right direction. I still can't believe I've recovered from depression again. I don't even feel depressed anymore.

Do I wish things could move faster? Yes. Do I want all my desires now? Yes. However, I'm falling in love with the process and not being so impatient anymore.

Anyway, I won't ramble on about this. I hope you're doing well, too. If you're in a dark place, seek out a therapist and psychiatrist. It could be a chemical imbalance in your brain. Just saying. I had no idea until I started taking Abilify.

Good luck.